Saturday, December 26, 2009

陈绮贞。长度

我从没想过假期会是件这么可怕的事

就算把预期中的全部节目抽起也并不会让人沮丧多少

一段时间一种性格

我暂时不习惯和太多人同一时间哈拉

而可怕的不是这些

却是有人把我的时间拉长再拉长

过得恍如一年,却也只不过一小时之久

这种仿佛卡带的滋味真令人沮丧 =/

天啊





几年前老是想这么一个她,早就该红了

现在却觉得就这样很好,名气是什么

是陈绮贞就很够了

我把她点了循环播放

不断重复同一样事物时,时间的节奏就会被拉快,应该是

我其实应该把节奏定住,赶不完的已经赶不完了

真矛盾

却还是不其然的偏向前者 =/

算了

快回来吧喂

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Middle Break

2 days slept 2 hours, crap nx time


drawing ink no.2, rainbow color lion fish, sry for the bad quality of photo =/


1 more class b4 middle break of this sem, WOOT, it's holidays~

jom escape from assignments, holiday mode OWNING!

sleep!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

星期一的牢骚

很少任由情绪它胡乱放纵,也许只是因为星期一

我真切地希望还有六天的假期快点到,我希望它是明天

已经好几天无法专心赶功课了,没作品的感觉很糟,不间断赶功课的感觉更糟

睡眠时间拉长了,但内疚感满怀的睡眠简直就是他妈的糟糕

很多东西一团糟,那些还好,但它们在星期一的夜晚都变得异常糟糕

可不可以给我一个可以互骂粗口的buddy?

噢噢噢噢噢噢噢噢噢 o0o

算了 >B/



对萧敬腾就是不怎么感冒,因为那时还有杨宗玮

还好当时他并不是用这种方式来唱新不了情

因为萧敬腾不会被埋没,而我却可能因此错过了杨宗玮

=/

就这样吧,不管这样,也只能这样而已

=/

发发牢骚而已,就只是因为星期一

他妈的

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

BAKUC 2009

it's BAKUC again, time memang flies

fyi BAKUC refers to Bandai Action Kits Universal Cup, for short, it means Gundam!

Happy 30th anniversary to Gundam, woot!

alright pictures

due to hand shaking n adjustment prob, most of the photos were blurred, malou


1/12 RX-78-2 as guardian at entrance


PG 00 Gundam, next aim



been there for some photo shooting purpose, but still not very get use to DLSR yet, too complicated for amateur like me, digicam + PS still the first choice =/

gonna practice hard in coming mid break, bobian

nah, sketching time

Friday, November 27, 2009

Sketching 14

3rd piece of A2

cant scan it perfectly, tats y need to touch up bit wif PS, bobian =/


SF in charcoal


shuld use back pencil as medium d, kinda forget how to sketch by using it =/

Push

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Undone

sketching undone
character design undone
precision illustration undone
water color undone

malou

suan la, slowly complete it, quality comes first

AI for computer class, ah fish punya ferarri

in color mode



feel so wanna scream, lets go beach in coming December!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

就这样



生活很平静,间中有些起伏,像这首歌的旋律般

拖泥带水但无可回避

就这样吧

给我一个信念

我的年龄我的背景我所背负的那些

足够撑得起它的那些

和我会说的 和我不会再说的那些

所以就这样了

so just cut off my ears n back into life

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Sketching 13




random media is so fun, wow

Friday, November 13, 2009

破蛹

生活一团糟

要交的功课很多,种类很多,实习很多,个人发挥不多,想法很少

大多数时间我都不想认真说话

嗯,就这样

Magic ink/Drawing ink 的第一份功课,昆虫类


我完全不知道我该表达什么

生活真是一团糟的不得了

Monday, November 9, 2009

说谎

有些歌值得一而再,反复不停的听

等你很久了,林宥嘉


纯粹只是为了纪念这么一首好歌

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Sketching 12





Push to the max

眉头

上课中友人塞了一首歌进我耳朵

《相爱很难》

然后她眼眶开始红了起来,在我身后

我看着她,一点哭声也听不见,因为我戴着耳机

只能拍了拍她肩膀,一点忙也帮不上,有些事情旁人遥遥不能插手

歌曲很悲

我也很想哭

强忍着不哭的感觉就像被人掐着喉咙般难受

眉头像被锁住了般

歌曲很悲

身后的她在抽泣 班上的人统统都在啜泣

我一点声音都听不见,但我心头真的很酸

我真的很想哭




而我此刻尽管如此彷徨,可脚步却未能因我而停下稍刻

可以不要这样吗 生活到底怎么了?



大刺刺的阳光怎么了?怎么我一点都感受不到温暖

可以不要只是歇一口气而已吗?

他妈的

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Sketching 11




Push

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Sketching 10

new sem starts, week3, getting busier n busier

less talk, c picture



will keep uploading :/

alright rushing to college, ciao

Thursday, October 8, 2009

寂寞不是两三句

我写了又擦,写了又擦

当并不能完全理解本质,何能以笔代之

如果生活的本质是寂寞,岂止三言两语

算了

Thursday, October 1, 2009

初恋红豆冰



终于拍摄完成了,阿牛的第一部电影,其实也没期待什么,直到看到这个预告



我以为时代背景会更接近我们一些,没想到竟然把时间拉到了南洋时期;南洋情怀嘛,对我们这些后辈难免似懂非懂,但影片中更甚一点的怀旧气息,对我们这些已经经历与失去了前半段抑或整段青春期的那一代,感触还是蛮深

至少对我而言

阿牛的声音已经好久没这么让人有所感触了,自从城市蓝天之后

“你轻轻柔柔地细诉着槟城下的雨 淋湿你的长发几十年来抹也抹不去
啊哈 我会慢慢的想起 几十年都不会忘记”

感觉真好

品冠也是,弹着吉他那一段午夜香吻,他唱着的,依稀是那一代,这一代,好长的一段集体回忆

没关系,节奏慢点没关系



就快上映了,希望电影可以带来更大的冲击

大马电影加油啊

Friday, September 11, 2009

Malaysian for no doubt

finally gaotim my final presentation in foundation, at the same time 092 1-1D was officially dismiss.. eish.. jz wonder y things always end so fast when everyone getting closer, haih

sem break starts, into major after this, hmmm... lets c

talk bout this, final assignment of Ms.Deanie, based on the theme of Malaysia Culture

im trying to form a culture mask by manipulate every symbol that can actually represent my country well

One Malaysia, One culture

we all r Malaysian for no doubt, Happy Belated 52 years old Mr.M, Peace



and hoping it will b not onli conceptual in some day

3 weeks holidays coming, lets plan

AMANI

Sunday, September 6, 2009

诠释星期六

我本该睡着的了,这个星期六过得充实的有点过头

前一晚大约也只睡了两三粒钟,然后大清早出席中国美术史的讲座,第四堂课

它已经接近尾声了,真舍不得啊

本着基本常识或进阶知识能拥有越多越好的心态去参与的一个讲座,虽然常忍不住中途打瞌

严格来讲是个认真唔错的活动,认真获益良多

拉个插曲,今天坐在我面前的两条友不知在争论什么,关于美的形式创造感之类的话题

管我屁事之类的话题

嗯,只是透过他们更加明白自己所需要,所要通往的那一套艺术理念而已

能在下一段时间前了解这点,确实很Okay的了,至少它明确了些

真不错

谢了斗达

"......."

然后接下来这一天里所剩余的时间,我全用在讲废话上

毕竟星期六不适合太紧绷

喝茶,废话;喝茶,废话;喝茶,废话,三批人马

然后凌晨四点多七条友一起在绵雨中狂奔回家

我们完美诠释了何谓青春

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

"......."

其实一开始我所要写的是这短片

“爱到底”九把刀,方文山,陈奕与佼佼联手执导的一剧短片

而我只想说九把刀的那二十分钟



我是很想多些什么,不过我也很需要睡多点

就自己看吧

放轻松点,不过请认真地看完它





然后这首歌,完全是额外收获



0830,再见星期六,晚安

Friday, September 4, 2009

两三事

最近一时之间不同圈子的朋友都各自面对不同层面上的离别

我也即将面对自己的,某种涵义上

大家在喝茶时的有感而发,各自情感上的交汇,层层叠叠

用不同的方式诠释着各自的,却都同时间湿了眼眶

大概就是这样的了

=/

友情这家子事,是明白了又困惑,困惑了又豁达,不断重新体验的美好事物

你并不需要真正明白些什么,只要放胆很热血的去体验就遥遥足够了

大概就是这样的了



献给他们

一首只要透过声音投入感情就会泪流的歌

一首拥有回忆就会有感触的歌



很长一段时间里我都想把自己置入那些美好之中,倒带后重新再来一遍,又有谁不是

=/

Kini Kita Sudah Pisah
Mohon Doa Engkau Bahagia

我像港口 欢迎回来停留


嗯 =)

喂喂,大家加油

Monday, August 24, 2009

Project Decade - Kuuga Ultimate

hello random art, yo

been doing this for weeks, individual project that given by myself, Project Decade, trying to illustrate my all time heroes, 10 of the Heisei era main Kamen Rider in vector style

but hmmm it takes time seriously, now onli 10% progress, eish

luckily into extra studies now, time is more than enuf

alright, here goes the first 10%


Kamen Rider Kuuga in his Ultimate form (2000)


and will pause it after this, owe mr.lecturer some holiday sketches, back into sketching mode soon, hope my hands haven karat yet

feel wanna crap but its midnight, going back KL tmr morning, will miss Klang for sure, haih

good luck people, bye

Friday, August 21, 2009

莫拉克之后

最近一直流连图书馆都是为了追这则新闻的后续报导,篇篇都揪着心坎

事件已经发生了接近两个星期,却还未得到一个完善的处理,不想马后炮,只是希望明天翻开报章头条是马氏政府已经尽全力展开救援,是指行动上

偏激的话不用说太多,如果行动上能帮得上什么就一定要伸出援手啊,大家都是

画面中家属们的痛苦与眼泪都紧紧揪着心坎,真的很心酸

希望落难者绝大多数能平安归来,衷心希望


衷心希望世界和平

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

五分钟小休

嘿~ 喘一口气,wuuuuuuuuuuu

这口气是用一种很真诚的感情来喘的

前些日子忙得不像话,现在空闲得也不怎么像话

日子啊,就是不断类似重复

最近变得比较散漫,我想是空闲的日子偏多,把自己宠坏了

也变得不太想把想法用文字方式留下,虽然想法很多

想法很多,感触居多,想要深度对话,可是总觉得缺了什么

人啊

几条在巴生,几条还在英国,几条还在身边却没什么时间好好谈话

还好啦,说到底问题在于自己

没关系啦没关系,也很少为类似事物烦恼

所谓坚固的不是无坚不摧,而是一种不需让人担心的平稳感

而我想趁机把时间给予自己多一些

说说这个,在Dasein的生活

我只写一遍

“..........”

我想我已经在实现梦想的途中

前提当然是我必须十分清楚我的梦想到底是什么

我很清楚,梦想菱角的触感

学院中强手很多,透过学院所看到的强手更夸张,太夸张

我很清楚我的水准其实该摆在哪里,压力应该放多少

两年将会漫长的不像话

收获也将是

不过嘛,我很享受这种很多情绪交错的感觉

只要把睡眠时间留一点给我就好了

“.......”

应该差不多是这样

我的文笔越写越差

没关系,迟些会越写越少

迟些让我用我的创作来说话

靠,真好听啊

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Random Art 017

this sem has come to an end, yet im still rushing assignment everyday, i also wondering y

y all these jz cant stop for while, i nid a sleep, seriously, fuck

able n had done sooooo many great artworks, but don feel really happy, i nid a pause, to find the balance point after all

nabeh



Mocha Jackson, final for AI class



continue rushing, kao

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Sketching 9

some sketches by using mixed medium such as pigment, Italic and marker

quite rough, newbie


#1 RX-0 Unicorn, haven complete the MG yet.. eish

#2 hmmm 2 robots,kinda like the feel

#3 I.SOBOT said thumb up! btw what is I.SOBOT?

#4 Exia! aiming its MG, will onli happen if receive freelance


quite enjoy the process when drawing these, ink sketches r fun

alright 4 more 4 more 4 more 4 more days left, lets gaotim it

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Random Art 016

another A2 sketch, Prince of Persia, spent 3 days on it i guess, sibeh slow = =



crap later, assignments really killing, ciao

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Sketching 8

more sketches, wow


#1 Chuck Bass, Gossip Girl... ahemm run shape d

#2 Hiro Mizushima, aka Kabuto


final presentation for Color Studies nx monday, another 3 submission on coming week.. kao, RUSH!

n i saw Zeta Girl pasted on wall today, WOW, semangat sialllll

half hour break, lets rest gaogao n work gaogao

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Random Art 015

1 of the A2 sketch mr.lecturer ask to complete in holiday

spent 3 days in shading, 90% completed, no time slow slow do the detail part d.. other assignments waiting, haih


the Zeta Girl


get another A2 task today, 20% excited n 80% WALAO EH

time really sibeh tight, add oil pal

Saturday, July 11, 2009

WTF4

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

take a deep breath n watch this, Walao eh

Sunday, July 5, 2009

10 Mins Crap

5am now, im still awake, thx assignments o0o

having my 10 mins break, n im readin this, n thinking

n the background music was this

say hi to King of Pop, he is GODLY GREAT, no doubt


no one wants to be defeated, thumbs up for this

i definately miss him, though not super fans of him, sad for his leaving too, kinda deeply, sort of

tats y i keep singing beat it, n dance some silly moves everyday, kao, BEAT IT BEAT IT~

5 more mins, 自我约束真是件烂事, i can feel the existence of time so much now, 30 hours left till school reopen, everything seems to be sooo rush = =

wanna count how many assignments left in the last 2 mins firstly, but hmmmm.. guess will more headache after doing this, so save it bah, back into position earlier

i love u assignments, i really do o0o

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Sketching 7

yo

no holiday feel punya holiday end soon, everyday pagi meeting malam homework, kao

yet the progress still very slow, nvm la make sure the work got quality enuf


#1 oldman, in seductive pose

#2 another 1, poser him
#3 Nate Archibald, wuuu


assignment sibeh many, but i guess i found the jumper, feel really not bad

anyway going Greenbox shout gaogao later, wahahahaha lol

ciao

Monday, June 22, 2009

周记,写一个杂乱不一的星期

该怎么说呢,有些事情永远出乎你意料外

"......"

我放假了,长达三个星期,但心境上其实一点都不轻松

压根儿不轻松,完全喘不过气,功课问题

但我还是不叼那些啦,就是不想叼

我老早就决定放自己一个星期长假

打算跟老友聚聚,聚多点

然后再一个人慢慢步行到吉胆

这么说吧

其实重心原应在于那单人旅行

从我住家开始,慢慢步行到吉胆

停停走走,把脚步放慢,边走边看

用一趟旅程,用自己的眼光去了解自己成长的这个地方




有时间的话,每个人都必须来趟类似旅行



整个路程长达30公里,差不多

步行了7个小时,坐船坐了半小时,差不多



四点钟,太阳,吉胆,和不知名的植物




我的计划其实是这样的

吉胆是这趟旅程的终站

在吉胆好好过上一夜,夜晚袭来时一个人在码头坐坐

一樽啤酒和一本好书

然后在这样的环境下好好思考思考

我的人生我的未来我的存在定位,反复嚼咬这些恼人无解

真是不错,听起来真是不错

而且我也成功做到了,至少以上的我都做到了

走了很多,看到了很多,体验了很多

但是之后带来的冲击感并没有如我想象般强烈

我其实期望更多

我期望会了解多一些,多一些,什么都好

但其实真的还好

真是出乎意料


说真的,我实在想抓住更多


真是出乎意料



"........."

而让我出乎感慨的其实是这个,老友间的聚会

说是聚会其实也只不过是那三人,然后一起去唱唱歌,喝喝茶

不过因为一些心血来潮,所以让我整个星期都处于一种热血沸腾的状态

那天喝茶时聊了很多过往,太多太多

然后突然间决定第二天回母校,拜访老师,说说废话

真是让人哈哈哈的心血来潮

母校啊母校,真是让我感触良多



看到了老谢,看到这位老师和那位老师

好久不见了,五年了几乎

感慨啊感慨

两条友走走拍拍,老友碰到了他教的补习学生,我碰到表弟

然后我们都碰到一些回忆,让人相视而笑那种


我的姿势真的很潇洒,而内心真的很澎湃




而让这种感慨整整维持一星期之久的陆续有来

真是出乎意料

老友和我敢敢把中学时那种noob害照片放上Facebook

一切都是因为心血来潮

然后Tag来Tag去啦

分散各地的同学通通被拉回来,射来射去

直接陷入集体回忆,我班啦我班

真是只有他妈的爽到可以形容

哈哈哈哈哈,啊哈哈哈哈

哈哈哈

哈哈

我真的很感慨,哈哈哈

那些年啊,那些年

成长中的难忘经历终究会慢慢褪去,毫无避免的

若幸这些回忆有朝一夕统统袭回,浪潮般汹涌

那种感动绝对足以让人落泪,绝对

=)

年底将有个大聚会,衷心希望会是另外一个难忘

=)
"........"

过多几个小时就必须投身回学业,忙碌得很,他妈的

算了,我很享受

加油

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

有愧

在很多时候,有些感触是无法用语言来交待的

我无法用只把它拿来写写废话和题外话的英文来表达,而就算用中文也大概只能说个含糊

然后我无意间听到了这首歌

林夕把词写得很澎湃

陈奕迅把歌唱得很滂沱

我不是很清楚是不是这么形容

只知道这些感触,很汹涌的冲进我某些部位




良心有愧 原来随便错手可毁了人一世

总有太多狼狈不堪的事情发生在成长过程中,难堪的完全不懂如何应对,年少时大家通常只是一昧逃避

所以内疚内疚和后悔后悔一直累积

“.......”

或许其实大家一早都懂得

懂得面对,懂得回首向那些过往用力的道歉

懂得其实这些无心有心到底会导致什么什么

只是愧疚还没怎么深,所以大家都无动于衷

“........”

话不必太多,重要的是其它的

这首歌带来的感触太汹涌

希望这种急进会让我在曾经的难堪上果决一点

衷心希望

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Pause

deep breath, Wuuuuuuu~ hey sem break d =)

though not really consider holiday, still nid to rush this n that, 3 weeks r damn short, but better than none, many plan waiting to b done during this break

alright some delay post


another oldman sketch, paste on board, no chance to scan
wanna draw something better than this after holiday =)

illustration for AI class


lots to do, of coz

but lets take a pause 1st, wanna concentrate in eating, sleeping, reading n repeating these for few days

今天只做一件事, Eason said so

me too

Monday, June 8, 2009

Random Art 014

yoyo *cough cough cough* sick gaogao

week 10 now, last week b4 sem break, n 4 assignments nid to b hand up b4 it =/

anyway

done 1 of it today, poster design


lets c

A Star is born, the theme


shuldn draw the outline so solid, noob in coloring, no technique =/

but hmmmm... actually quite satisfy d la, for a color noob like me, lol

yet still

再强点 再强点 再强点

okay recharged, move on

*cough cough cough*

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Sketching 6

reach home, tired bone

farewell wif AML UK goer jz now, dinner at Tokyo Restaurant, was onli 10pm when it ends, 2nd plan is a must, so we move on to Tbun, Wangsa

hmmm when we mention Tbun, do u still rmb this? LOL

guys don really talk their feeling, we prefer action, tats y i kena so many headshot in the sniping map lah, lol diuuuuu

2 more days, best luck to all of them wei

=)

alright back into topic

sketchy sketches =/

i stuck, seriously, but don feel to share, at the moment i will jz埋头苦干,埋深点,干多点

blah

#1 Phantom of the Opera

#2 S and B, and ice-cream
#3 lovely old couple


alright sleep

Monday, May 25, 2009

For The Past

went yamcha wif oldman jz now, suddenly talk bout diploma thingy, assignments, lecturers, peoples, blih blah, others saw 2 sohai keep laughing at mamak, lol

we mentioned bout how noob we were last time, wahahaha, make me wanna upload them sia


the Augustine's stuff, digital effect

and we nvr forget his quote, This is not what i want lah~ LOL


the sculpture thingy, 1st group assignment of Wave Crew i think

you think the sculpture looks noob?

not until u meet the group members, hahaha


don forget THE God of Gamble too, photostory assignment

we draw
we shootand we even float, HAHAHAHA
LOL, super memorable noob moments =)

assignments r not sooo heavy compare to the 1 im studying now, very relaxing day we had

yar, tats y we hav a lot of true frens =)

from a small five
to a bunch of sohai

even when we change from DML to AML, we r still soooo sohai
lalalala~ miss wei


all appear to b sooo important =)

so damn lucky lah them, me too, to b part of each others, hey hey, high five lah buddies~

3 more days for UK peoples, all the best wei =)